05-07-2015, 05:51 PM
I'm going to be 30 in Aug. and I just found out I have SPD. I had never even heard of this disorder before yesterday. I just feel like a fraud, as though every strange quirk that makes up my personality is somehow only a result of trying to cope. I feel like I lost my identity.
I don't know if the diagnosis was helpful or detrimental, now I know there's a reason it has always been incredibly difficult to maintain romantic relationships, and that I don't have intimacy issues.
I don't know, I guess I'm just having a pretty hard time dealing with the fact I didn't need to struggle for nearly 30 years, and that all the things I was told that were wrong with me or the way I thought weren't correct.
I'm just lost.
I don't know if the diagnosis was helpful or detrimental, now I know there's a reason it has always been incredibly difficult to maintain romantic relationships, and that I don't have intimacy issues.
I don't know, I guess I'm just having a pretty hard time dealing with the fact I didn't need to struggle for nearly 30 years, and that all the things I was told that were wrong with me or the way I thought weren't correct.
I'm just lost.