Today, I just narrowly escaped crying and freaking out in public... I was in the supermarket. I was wondering if you guys become very *very* confused and disoriented when extremely overwhelmed both emotionally and sensory wise (together) ... do your thoughts seem to work so slowly that they are no use, you can't take in everything around you properly...you feel dizzy, confused, and become very off balance to the point of almost falling over. This happens at least once every 4 days...

Also....I'm finding my my ability to tolerate triggers and stress associated with daily living (such as being out in public, on transport, in supermarkets etc.) is becoming much worse (over the past 6 months) than it has ever been.. I think.
I feel discouraged, because I can't lock myself away from the world and never go out, I get lonely very easily and enjoy spending time with small groups of people I know well (not *all* the time, however - need frequent 'rests'), and I don't drive so the need to use public transport most places is always there. I also can't opt to stay inside on busy days as I have my study/course on 2 days a week minimum, sometimes in the city and sometimes about 45 mins to an hour away, each way.. as well as various appointments on other days. I feel like I am becoming this angry, horrible and unpleasant person to be around the majority of the time, because I'm at cracking/'meltdown point' daily.. and my parents (who I talk to every day or two on the phone) and my boyfriend who I live with seem to cop the most of my frustration/tantrums... I have never liked anger as an emotion, and never been an angry person, I don't like being angry and it upsets me to no end to see myself so irritable, it is so unlike me.

(I'm very tired - sorry if this post doesn't really make sense)
Any comments, thoughts or advice welcome!