hi, and welcome - there are a some of us adults here - and I understand your pain, and suffering. Oh my - I read your post - and see so many similarities - I am a (almost) 43 yr old mom. I am sure I had SPD my whole life - but mine has become horrible in the last 5 years - to the levels that your at now - and your only 23 What is good - is that you dont have to feel alone - or crazy. Its real, and really can make you miserable....what I have found essensial - is recognizing the triggers, I really only began that about a year ago, and its the only way to try to minimize some of the stimuli that we dont want - or finding ways to cope, even creating stimuli we do - that can help get past the meltdown crying phase. I have successfully done that with doing dishes (after many, many years), and stopped crying in the shower - this summer! Music is my lifeline - for sure - and I love frogs so much - and my cat...they are very perceptive to our suffering - and calming. I struggle quite a lot these days - going out - because now I know its an entire set of overstimulli that I cant control - so I am trying to figure that one out - in due time I guess....I too like video games, movies, researching and documentaries became a more recent favorite of my this past year...welcome and anything I can give you ideas about - I will do my best!