Well - the past few weeks, 5am this morning included - I am going out of my mind because of a low bass hum coming from farm tractors in the valley behind my house. I can tell when they stop - and the past few days - its going 12hrs a day - and is killing me. There is no escaping it. Yesterday - I attempted going to my sons soccer playoff game - and it was a disaster for me - The people near me yelling, and there negative comments. It was outdoors and the perfume from someone was killing me - and before I could get away from that - my 70+ mother in law decides to plant herself next to me - an avid gum cracker - mouth wide open, and her perfume - holy mackeral - this is outside - I ended up not being able to breath, or cope - and left the game - no explainations because she would get offended and on and on. My life, especially because of smells, and sounds is a torture. I coped in the past with sedatives, ADD medication, and drinking - all of which I no longer do, and its pure torture. I want to move from the farm behind my house so bad to a secluded country place - and just maintain myself, with my kids the best I can. Ugh sorry, but yesterday was one of the worst days I have had since about May. Anger, is becoming depression, and isolation for me. My options thus far to block things are not possible. When my husband sneezes I want to punch him - same when he eats - anything - my youngest has SPD too, so he is quicker to stop when I tell him, because he understands it. I cant wear earplugs, or head phones and am at a loss - feel like I need to go deaf for this to ever end, and I wish a sinus cold would stop my sense of smell. That has not happened for 4 years. Its ridiculous to want to be unable to smell and hear right? Even when I think that is ludacris to think - the constant negative impact is far out waying the good things that I will miss! stacey