Its' ok, I have tried to do it so much for my son. He has an aversion to smells as well and I do not take it lightly. My boyfriend is as well coming off an addictive med as well and he definitely has SPD that went undiagnosed all his life he is 50, then I come along! lol This helps me as well to understand what he could be going though that I do not understand. I think it is harder to be patient with an adult because they are that, an adult. So I have to remind myself that he is not any different then my son just older. I think with spreading the word and educating people as much as we can it will mean more help and understanding for all of you guys! I get so mad when I go and sub in different rooms and you see these kids of all ages struggling and I am told " Watch out for that one" no I won't, how about I try and help them have a better day! I believe that there are not behavior problems, I believe that there are problems that cause the behaviors. If we can get to the root of what is troubling them then we can help them to be successful. Not just assume that the kid or person is a "problem child'. It is funny ( not ha ha) my boyfriend now will say, I am like Logan ( my son) when I was in school I couldn't sit still, I always had to get up and move, I couldn't listen, etc.. He goes now I know why after hearing about Logan. Him never being helped properly came from the ignorance of the time. He ended up being a trouble maker, kicked out of school and put in a behavioral school, etc. So, I have this problem to want to try and think of ways to come up with ideas to help rather then to ignore. My friends tell me I have a disease. lol! So... with that being said! You should draw a picture or write about that day you take the butterflies to the pond! Write or draw what you are picturing in your head and get out of your house in that sense for now! Try and do something once a day to make yourself feel happy. I don't know you, but I do know you deserve it! I have spoken! hahahahaahha