Hi,
I am a mother of 3 and I can not stand to much noises going on at the same time. For example if I'm reading and the tv is on, music playing, people talking, dripping water or even a ticking clock. I am unable to understand what I'm reading. It all turns into a void. I can not stand to be repeatedly asked the same question over and over. My children will rapid fire me with questions or just saying mom over and over and every time I start to answer they do it again and it's like my brain restarts. Everything I own has to be soft. Blankets, towls, pillows and even my clothes. Jeans are a nightmare cause all I can think about its how it feels on my skin to the point of utter distraction. I can't wear anything or lay on or sit on anything that is not soft to the touch.. I can't buy shoes new for fear of the pain to come. I can't stop moving. I used to get made fun of in school because I would always rock. I still do it to this day other wise I am so uncomfortable in my body that if I dont I feel like ants are crawling all over my body. I have bad anxiety and am currently battling depression. But still nobody understands. Any noise can send me into a panic if it is to much at once. I'm scared to stay anywhere but home and if not I have to bring all of my bedding with me. If someone has a clock that ticks I will take the batteries out. It's either to much that I can't process anything being said or read or it can be one noise that will be the only thing I focus on. I can't say I want my normal life back cause it has been the same just gotten worse when I had my kids. I don't want them growing up with a mom who can't be there for them when they are just being children. I'm lost and scared and don't know what to do or where to turn to. I need help and people who understand me. Because nobody gets it.