Quasar
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RE: What does it feel like to you?
Auditory, tactile and visual for me.
I can't tolerate high pitched or low/buzzing sounds. I am constantly tormented by noises that no one else seems to be able to hear. Some of the worst ones that get me are shopvacs, air compressors, pumps, dishes clanging together(and I work in a kitchen... -_-) and that scraping, rolling sound my trashcan makes as I pull it down the driveway. I often try to roll it through the grass because I hate the noise so much. Yard needs to be cut though, its gotten too high to pull the can through it. I settle for half and half. Another big one is eating sounds. I hate eating around most people, because the sounds they make cause me to cringe and want to scream at them. I don't understand why people have to smack and carry on, it drives me absolutely batshit insane. My dad has to be one of the worst. I swear he smacks at least 5 times between every bite and drink he takes. Then, after he's done with the meal, comes with the sneeze fest, which makes it like 100 times worse.
Some of my tactile issues I can think of off-hand are: light touches, clothes tags, tight clothing, certain fabrics and barred soaps(I'm allergic, makes me itch and breakout). The tight clothing thing is actually kinda odd, because I do like pressure. I guess I only like it delivered in certain ways. I also have different thresholds of tolerance in different parts of my body. As I explained to someone recently, if I jumped into a hot tub, some parts of my parts would burn in agony and other parts would be fine, possibly even tolerate more heat. This poses issues if I am eating or drinking something hot: just because I can touch it doesn't mean I won't torch my mouth or tongue.
Photophobia has always caused me a lot of grief, that's a big reason I always wear a hat now. Very much feels like being stabbed in the eye to me when exposed to brighter lights, and it does seem to get worse the older i get. I have what I call "bad light days", where everything seems to hurt me. I cant go outside into the sun; I have to squint in the shade as it is, even with a hat. Stuff like that. Another visual issue I have, is with my peripheral vision. It causes me much more anguish than it should to see repetitive movement in my peripheral field. If I am watching tv, or reading, etc, and someone is sitting next to me, swinging a leg, and I can see it, that distracts and bothers me a lot. I have no earthly idea why, since I'm often jittery and fidgety worse than that. *shrugs*
(This post was last modified: 02-23-2011, 09:51 PM by Quasar.)
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02-23-2011, 02:39 PM |
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