OT yesterday was hard for me. This was his third visit. Now, I should be glad that the OT was able to see a more typical picture of him, but, it was still tough for me. He was ramped up all weekend, and he was that way for her too. He kept popping forward into her face and making noises. The wouldn't stay on task for the fine motor work. THen, she saw one of this other things- he was having trouble with a fine motor task and disengaged and started crying. That was one of the initial things that had me seek help because he does this with things like learning letters too. It's not a tantrum, it's a silent broken cry. It breaks my heart that he can go from totally excitable to just wrecked in a matter of moments like that. We walked him through that last repetition of that task, and then she let him do some work with the exercise ball and some wheelbarrow.

I know that I am pregnant and hormonal, and it doesn't help. But, I just wanted to cry as we drove him. It was a tough hour trying to keep him on task and engaged. It was tough to have that happening when he was to be working for someone else besides me. It is tough to see him so unable to self regulate to deal with these swings. I know OT is good for him. I just wish there was some magic wand to help him learn some self-regulating strategies immediately.