So i'm a new member to the site. I was diagnosed at a young age with SPD. I can't really recall all that took place but I do know that I saw an OT when i was like 8 or so. From what my mom has told me when i was born I went without oxygen for awhile (not sure how long) and that has something to do with my issues. I got some testing done when i was 17 or so for it as well, but i was rebellious and didn't care what they were telling me. I'm 29 now, and i'm 100% sure that it has caught up with me. Currently I am having A LOT of anxiety with pretty much everything. I work in a rather large Hospital and am around people all the time and in small med rooms. The panic attacks and anxiety attacks there are starting to get crazy, as well as even going out in public. I wanted to re start my research on SPD before I completely loose it (i feel like that will be soon). Now that i have a decent paying job and insurance I think it's time i finally seek some help from an OT. If the checklist has 100 items on it, I answered yes to 80 of them. The Social and emotional part is a yes to all, sensory discrimination, over responsiveness,sensory seeking and general modulation are the tops ones. I've been curious on finding out about myself for a few years now because I feel like I don't even know who I am. I'm in a great relationship and it seems like I don't want to do anything anymore. I get off work and end up sitting on the couch watching movies and on my laptop for hours, staying up all night and waking an hour or so before I have to leave for work. I'm not coming to this site to complain about my life, but to try and find other people that may understand or help me understand.

I had an incident at my job the other day where my supervisor actually told some co workers that im incapable of doing my job because of my anxiety. That hurt my feelings, like i'm being picked on because I can't learn as fast as everyone else or the way they expect me to. I also obsess over issues and stupid things, bite my nails to the point where it's disturbing, have a hard time with team work, and have never had a lot of friends because I never feel the urge to "go out". In my early 20's I suffered from alcohol and gambling addiction but have almost 5 years clean and sober. My DR recently gave me Ativan, which helps but Its HIGHLY addictive and had to stop taking it because I became addicted just from taking it every other day for 8 days, because it WORKED. I also don't want to start taking anti depressants because I took that road 5 years ago and the side effects sucked. LOL sorry, i'm rather talkative tonight. I guess i will stop there. If there is a good thing about myself, I am very open and honest and not afraid to talk about my life. So does anyone else with SPD have a big problem with Anxiety/panic attacks?

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Oh there is one more thing i forgot, and i have only heard personally of 2 other people with this. I'm sensitive to phone radiation. To the point where I can't hold a cell phone up to my ear without getting a crazy headache. Even home phones make my head hurt. weird huh.