I am so glad you are getting to acceptance. Remember, it's not a linear progression. There'll be some days where you say "why?!" and want to rant at the world and rage. That's ok, too. Really, there is a bit of grief processing, having to face all these unrealistic expectations and "stuff" that you've faced during your life. And it's ok, wonderful that you are deliberately processing that. But if you have moments that you feel less "adjusted" to it than others, you don't have to feel like you've failed at acceptance or being yourself. Love yourself, live your life, accept your feelings because they're yours, and know that we're all here for you, regardless of if you're crying or cheering.